The House That Built Me

A few weeks ago I first heard a song that really spoke to me.  The name of the song is “The House That Built Me” by Miranda Lambert.  When I heard the song and listened to the lyrics, it stirred up memories from my childhood growing up at 2119 E. Griffith Way.

This week I took a trip back to Fresno to visit my family, Mom, sister, two sons, and my two grandkids.  Since I had not seen my old house in many years, I decided to drive over to my old neighborhood a take a look at the house at 2119 E. Griffith Way.

I pulled the car to a stop, set the parking brake, and shut off the engine, ans sat across the street from from 2119 E. Griffith Way. It was very quiet on the street and I just thought that I would absorb the atmosphere.  As I sat in the car and just stared at the old house the old memories started flowing through my brain.

There in the front yard the crape myrtle that we used to jump over for years had finally gotten a chance to grow!  For many years that poor little tree never had gotten over about 3 feet tall.  The main reason for that was, as kids, we used to run and attempt to jump over it.  Sometimes we were not successful and would break off some of the tree trunk.

The visions of all four of boys playing “sock ball” over the years on the lawn up along the right side of the driveway flashed through my brain.  “Sock ball” was like baseball.  We would get our old socks that had holes in them and gather them, putting one inside another to make a ball.   Man some of those games were fierce!  As the years progress, we played wiffle ball, that would make the game a little different.

As I gazed over the back fence, there were still some remnants of Dad’s garden.  The peach trees and the orange trees were still thriving.  The boysenberries were gone, but the wires that they used to grow on were still there.

The old street has changed dramatically since Highway 41 came through and took most of the houses.  During my youth, there were some very competitive games of “home run derby” out in the street. Talk about competitive games, the “wheelie” contests on our bicycles were legendary!  Wow, the memories were now flowing like a raging river through my mind.  It felt like a dam had burst at its seams and all these memories were just gushing through my head like a raging river!

Then the realization set in, I had been sitting in my car for over an hour, reminiscing over memories that, in some cases, were over 50 years old!  That little blonde haired, snotty nosed kid that I saw running and jumping over the crepe myrtle, playing “sock ball”, annoying my siblings, popping wheelies, was none other than me!

It was at that point that, once again, that the Miranda Lambert song that I alluded to in the beginning of this article played in my head!

It was at this point that I realized that I was truly at “The House That Built Me”!

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March 23,1978 A Life Changing Day!

JUST A NOTE FROM YOUR DAD:

I have written about a few dates in my life that has forever changed who I am.  This is date, March 23,1979, is a day that made a huge in my, then, young life.  I had just turned 27 years old the month previous and was a young U.S. Air Force Captain flying in the left seat of a Lockheed built C-141 Starlifter out of Travis AFB, CA.  I was, as you have often heard me say, tongue in cheek, “living the dream”!  But at this point in my life I really thought that I was truly “living the dream”!!

The birth of my second son, Jeremy Leon Hammack, on March 23, 1978, was a very joyous occasion!  Because Jeremy was a Cesarean birth, his mother and I picked his birthday from a list of days that the hospital at Travis AFB performed those surgeries.  So it was decided that March 23 was going to be the day.

Reliving, and now writing about, that day stirs up emotions that are as fresh today as they were on the afternoon of March 23, 1978…..32 years ago.  It is quite unexplainable!  The doctor tried to arrange for me to be in the surgery room and had briefed me on what to expect, but at the last minute those plans fell through the cracks.  Now, 32 years later, I think that I am oh so glad that I was not allowed into the surgery room for the Cesarean birth!  I am quite sure that they would have had to pick me up off the floor, ’cause I really can’t stand to see blood, cutting, and all that kind of medical  stuff!!  I honestly admit that I am a WIMP!!!

So now it your birthday, Jeremy.  I am having a very difficult time realizing that you are 32 years old!  I still have these visions in my head ( I am a little bit prejudice) of this blonde hair and blue eyed little boy who was soooo cute and could melt the heart of anyone!  Now you are a man with children of your own!  It is your turn to make a difference in someone’s live, Cole and Hannah specifically!

I will admit that our relationship has hit many potholes during this life’s journey, been to the very edge of the cliff during these 32 years, but through it all we somehow have been able to rebuild the relationship.  I will also admit to you that I have had many shortcomings as a parent, and at times my learning curve was monumentally steep.  There are times I know that you thought that I have failed you miserably, and I did!  Those failures weren’t from a lack of effort, however.

Jeremy, I want you to know that I love you from the bottom of my heart.  I know that things have not always been the way that you thought or wanted them to be, but that is life.  Sometimes our expectations far exceed the reality of results.  Remember what I have always told you, “Life is a journey, not a guided tour!”  Life is what you make of it!  Additionally, it not what you take with you when you leave this Earth, it is what you leave here when your are gone!

Now that you have two young children you will see just how difficult, at times, it is to be a father.  You also have the opportunity to correct some of the things that I failed at in fatherhood, now that you have Cole and Hannah.

So, my son, enjoy your birthday!  Relish in the thought that this day will never come around again and make your 32nd birthday a day that you will always remember. 

But most importantly remember that your dad loves you unconditionally, no matter what!

Be a positive force in the lives of Cole and Hannah.  Always let them know that you love them unconditionally!!  It will pay dividends in the end!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY!

Recuperating from racing??

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(photo courtesy Leon Hammmack)

Well, I am back at work after about three weeks of some extraordinary racing!  Speedweek at Daytona and the Daytona 500 was an excellent time.  The only drawback was that the temperature was uncommonly cold for February.  That made for some really unorthodox clothes combinations for Jim and myself!  We were dressing a lot like our father!!!  ( Inside joke, sorry Dad!)  Ol Arch was not a fashion statement by any stretch of the imagination!

The drive back from Daytona was quite an adventure (read Jimmy and Leon’s Great Adventure) to say the least!

The few days over at Tuscon’s USA Raceway for the USAC midgets, sprint cars, and silver crown races were cool!  No it was down right cold!  The weather didn’t cooperate much.  However, the racing was really great.

Then the trip to and at Las Vegas Motor Speedway was equally cold.

But the one thing about RVing with friends and family, the company is ALWAYS good!  Karen and I had a wonderful time camping at Tuscon and Las Vegas with Jim, Edie, Jerry, as well as Dan and Bernie Clapp. I would like to thank everyone who help ed to prepare the meals we ate at both Tuscon and Las Vegas, those people would be Karen, Edie, Jerry, Berni, Dan, and Jim “the short order fry cook”!!

Can’t wait till next year to do it all over again!

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Happy Birthday Dad!!

Happy Birthday Dad. I was reflecting on all the times we had in my life and thought I would post some of those here. Thanks dad for all you have done and all the good times we have had. Who can forget all the roller coasters that we have done!! The X at Six Flags being the best ever.

Me and Dad riding the Best Roller coaster ever!!


hangin in Hawaii

Minature Golf

Camping and Racing

NASCAR in Las Vegas

NASCAR Cafe

Dirt Track Racing at Las Vegas

In The Twinkling Of An Eye

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(photo courtesy Leon Hammack)

Over the last few months I have been wrestling with many things in my mind.  One thought in particular is the the aging process and dealing with my own mortality.

For most of my 59 years I have always been thought of as the youngest child of Archie and Ola Mae Hammack, Ted’s little brother, Jim’s little brother, Jerry’s little brother, or Zeeva’s little brother.  That has always been my lot in life, and quite honestly, it  has been very great ride!  I have always thought of myself as young person, yet the mirror doesn’t lie!  In less than a month I will celebrate my last birthday of my 50′s, what a rude awakening!

It doesn’t seem that long ago that myself and all four of my siblings were living at home in my parent’s very small two bedroom house on Griffith Way in Fresno, CA.  We were a very tight family growing up there.  Like all kids, I am sure that we were all anxious to “leave the nest”, become our own person, be self sufficient, and be on our own.  Little did we really know what would lie ahead in our future.

Up until 1995 we all were still Archie and Ola Mae’s five kids.  But in December of 1995, Dad passed away.  From that day, December 30, 1995, the five of us were thrust into the position of the patriarchs of this brood of the Hammack family.  From that point the harsh reality of the aging process became a part of my pysche.  No longer did I feel “bullet proof”, no longer did I feel the security that I had experienced up to that point of my life.  The reality that life is finite, that there is an end to this thing, really slapped me in the face!

As I sit in my hotel room in Honolulu and reflect on my past, I have great memories of my youth and the relationship that I have had with my brothers and sister.  They always took care of me as a youngster.

It is time that I let them know just how much I appreciated them!   Thank you Ted, Jim, Jerry, and Zee for being there for me.  I know that you may not realize it, but you all have been, in some shape or form, responsible for me growing up to be who I am!  I owe you all a debt of gratitude that I probably never can repay!  You’ve been the best brothers and sister I could ever ask for!

As I have mentioned at the beginning of this article, I am approaching the age of 59.  However my siblings are now in their mid to late 60′s, and my oldest brother is rapidly approaching 73 years.  Through the ups and downs of life, raising our own families, the five siblings have now come full circle to that tight family concept that our parents created oh so long ago!

Your legacy is still alive and strong, rest easy Dad!

You may be wondering who is in the picture at the beginning of this article?  The picture is of my grandson Cole Jeremiah Hammack, Jeremy’s son.  He is now 7 years old and in second grade.

Let your loved ones know that you love and appreciate them, don’t wait too long, because……

LIFE CAN DISAPPEAR IN THE TWINKLING OF AN EYE!

Thanksgiving: What I am Thankful for….

The “Holiday Season” is upon us and the first of those holidays is Thanksgiving.  It is a time for families to gather for a meal and to have “family” time.  Also as the name suggests, it is a time to give thanks.

I feel compelled to use this venue to publish and express my thanks.  I have a list of things that I am thankful for, and I will enumerate them at this time!

1.  I am very thankful for the parents that I was most fortunate to have, Archie Wilson Hammack and Ola Mae Hammack. They came from very poor and humble beginnings in Oklahoma.  Because of those poor and humble beginnings, they provided a very grounded and loving upbringing to their five children.

2.  I am very thankful that my best friend and wife, Karen came back into my life after a 16 year haitus!  Or as she says, a long 16 year trip!  You are and will be forever the love of my life!

3.  I am very thankful for all of my children and grandchildren, they are a joy.  They are, after all, a precious gift and my legacy for all to see!

4.  The one thing that I have learned in my almost 59 years is that, again, life is a journey not a guided tour!  Your life is just what you make of it.  Live it to its fullest!   I have learned to give forgiveness and to love deeper.   Better yet, live every day like you are dying!

May you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!  Take time this Thanksgiving Day to tell your loved ones just what they mean to you, how much you love and care for them! You will make their day!

November 25, 1973

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(photo courtesy Leon Hammack)
November 25, 1973 was a nice fall Sunday afternoon in Mesa, Arizona.  Little did I know that it also was the day that would forever change my life!
Prior to that day I was 2Lt. Boyd Leon Hammack, USAF, son of Archie and Ola Mae Hammack, going through Air Force Undergraduate Pilot Training at Williams AFB, AZ.  But by dinner time, I was Leon Hammack the brand new father of an infant boy named Jason Christopher Hammack! My life was undergoing a dramatic shift!
At almost 23 years old I really didn’t know the far reaching ramifications of this special day.  I did not know all the nuiances of fatherhood and what the future would be for me!  After all, I had just graduated from California State University, Fresno in June and had only been in the Air Force for a total of three months.  The grind and stress of learning to fly jets in the USAF paled in comparison to what would lie ahead for me a parent!
Looking back on the last 36 years, it was quite a journey!  Throughout those 36 years there were joys and there were heartaches, there were good times and bad times.  Watching your son trying to manipulate the maze of life can be very trying, difficult, and very tumultuous for both parent and child!
Even though there were times I was not sure I was going to live through it all, we both did!
November 25, 1973, the beginning of the rest of my life!
Happy 36th Birthday, Jason!
PS A note to both of my sons:
I know that I was lacking in some areas of fatherhood, but I truly did the best that I could.  I love both of you from the bottom of my heart!  After all, you are my legacy!

It Was The Summer Of 1969!

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(Senior picture McLane High School 1969)
The summer of 1969 was the beginning of the rest of MY life, I just didn’t know it back then!
What I was about to witness in the summer of 1969 would define my youth and ultimately define the “Baby Boomer Generation”.
But first I need to tell you what made the summer of 1969 possible.  The happenings of the previous year of 1968 made the events of 1969 all the more historic.  The Vietnam War had become the most unpopular war in the history of the USA.  The war  had dragged on for many years with no end in sight, all the while the casualties continued to add up daily.  The youth of our country had become extremely disenchanted with the Vietnamese War and formed a nationwide, and very organized, opposition to it.
In April of 1968 Martin Luther King, the most prominent civil rights leader in the nation, was assassinated in Memphis, TN.  The very next month, Robert F. Kennedy was assassinated in Los Angeles, CA while campaigning for the Democratic Party Presidential nomination.  Within those two months the hopes and dreams of this country’s youth and the disenfranchised were destroyed!  The country was in disarray and divided over many issues.  As the unhappiness boiled, the rest of the citizens watched the rebellion and demonstrations later that summer in Chicago, as the Democratic Convention convened in Chicago, IL.  It appeared that our very societal foundations were crumbling before our very eyes.
Fast foward to April 1969, an enterprising young man named Michael Lang, along with as associate named Artie Kornfield, had devised a plan to put on a rock festival similar to the festival that had been staged earlier on the West Coast as the Monterey Pop Festival in Monterey,CA.  The only catch is that he needed some investors.  Fortunately for Lang, he came across an advertisement in the Wall Street Journal under the name of Challenge International, LTD: “Young men with unlimited capital looking for interesting, legitimate investment opportunities and business propositions”
That ad had put into the Wall Street Journal by two young men that had just come into some money via an inheritance.  Those two young men were John Roberts and Joel Rosenman.
Lang, Kornfield, Roberts, and Rosenman eventually agreed and formed “Woodstock Ventures” for the purpose of putting this idea together.
After viewing many potential sites, Woodstock Ventures settled on a 300 acre site at Mills Industrial Park located in Middletown, NY.  On July 15, 1969, just 30 days before the scheduled concert date, the Walkill County Zoning Board of Appeals revoked the permit on the grounds that the portable toilets did not meet the county code.  Fortunately, a farmer by the name of Max Yasgur was willing to allow the Woodstock Ventures to lease his 600 acre farm as the site of the festival!  It was crunch time, could this thing be put together in less than 30 days???  Good old American ingenuity was about to shift into high gear!
Initially, there was difficulty signing up the entertainment, but once John Fogerty and Creedance Clearwater Revival signed up the other acts quickly jumped on board!
The line up looked like this.
Friday
Richie Havens
Ravi Shankar
Melanie
Arlo Guthrie
Joan Baez
Saturday
Country Joe McDonald
John Sebastian
Santana
Canned Heat
Grateful Dead
Creedance Clearwater Revival
Joan Baez
Sly & The Family Stone
The Who
Jefferson Airplane
Sunday
Joe Cocker
Country Joe & The Fish
Ten Years After
The Band
Blood. Sweat, and Tears
Crosby, Stills, Nash, & Young
Paul Butterfied Blues Band
Jimi Hendrix
Even though there were huge thunderstorms during the weekend, people came in huge masses to experience this once in a lifetime event.  There were traffic jams on the NY State Thruway that were many miles long.  People abandoned their cars and walked the remaining distance to the festival.
Little did the four people that were behind “The Woodstock Ventures” know that there would eventually be and estimated 500,000 people attend this festival.  Additionally there was no way of knowing the wordwide impact that the weekend of August 15-18, 1969  on Max Yasgur’s farm would have on our society!
The legacy of Woodstock is still being written 40 years after that magical weekend on Max Yasgur’s farm in Bethel, NY.
Joni Mitchell wrote a song that Crosby, Stills, Nash, & Young made famous about this event.  Oddly enough it was titled “Woodstock”!
Peace, love, and harmony existed for one weekend in August in 1969 at Max Yasgur’s farm in up state New York!!
I LOOKED IT UP SO YOU WOULDN’T HAVE TO!

Fun at The Knoxville Nationals

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(Photo by Jim Hammack)

I have returned from six days of hard charging, dirt slinging, alcohol burning, sprint car racing!  For anyone who has been to the Knoxville Nationals, you can fully understand my feelings after returning!  Not only did I get to watch five days of the Knoxville Nationals (normally four days but we had a partial rain out), but I also went to Oskaloosa Tuesday evening for the 410 Wingless sprint car races.  What a great night of wingless sprint car races we witnessed!  That track is really conducive that style of racing.  You know what I am talking about, don’t you?  That’s the kinda of racing where they toss it into the turn, what I call backing it in and standing on the GAS!!!  COOL STUFF!

This was my sixth time to make the Knoxville Nationals.  For a sprint car race fan, these four nights at Knoxville are undoubtedly the absolute best sprint car races in the USA!  From the sprint car drivers and teams point of view, this is the single biggest payday in the entire year!  The winner of the Saturday night A Main won, are you ready—– a cool $150,000.00!!!!!!!!!  I don’t car how you cut it, that is a nice chunk of change to cart back home with the race car and the hauler!

The Knoxville weather was the typical summertime mid-western, humid, sticky, hot atmosphere.  On the first night of the Nat’ls, just as the cars to start their hot laps at 7:15 pm in preparation for the evenings racing, the heavens opened up and really poured!  The program of racing finally got started at 12:15am and ended at 3:00am!  That turned out to be a long night at the race track, but if you are a REDNECK at heart ( AND I WAS WORKING ON MY REDNECK!) it wasn’t bad!!!  After all, it was my first dose of dirt for this racing season!

The Knoxville race normally attracts “the best of the best” sprint car drivers and their teams.  It is the premiere sprint car race of the summer. Cars from all four corners of the USA, as well as some from Canada, Australia, and New Zealand participate in this event.  It is truly an international event for sprint cars!  The event is run as a four day event and drivers gather points each night.  Saturday’s event is a series of races culminating in the huge A Main event payday.

This year I think that the Sprint Car world witnessed a changing of the Guard.  Steve Kinser has long been “The King” of the Sprint Car world.  However, Donny Schotz claimed his 4th Knoxville Nationals in a row Sunday night!  Schotz has been a dominating force in that series now for the last four years.  Last year that domination just got a whole lot stronger!  In 2008 Tony Stewart bought Schotz’s race team and brought it  into his racing empire.  Now more than ever, Donny Schotz has been showing the rest of the boys the “fast way around the dirt”!

Once again I was very fortunate to have a brother and sister-in-law (Jim and Edie) bring their motorhome to Knoxville, and invite me to join them for the week. They made it possible for me to hit  Knoxville and enjoy two things that are an integral part of my life, family and good, good racing!!

TIL NEXT TIME, I AM STILL WORKING ON MY REDNECK!

Visiting Relatives

Tuesday I decided to stop in and pay a visit to a couple of relatives. I had not been to see them in a very long time, so I decided it was time to take a detour on my way home from the airport and visit them.  After all it had been 42 years since the last time that I had stopped by for a visit, it was the least that I could do!

After consulting a map I sat out to drive to where they are.  It only took about 12 minutes to reach their place from the airport in El Centro, CA.  As I pulled into their residence in Brawley, CA, I did have to stop at the office to verify both locations.  After I left the office, I drove very carefully to the first location.  I found it very easily, it was right next to the road.

As I got out of my car and walked carefully up to the location, I verified the residence……John A. Smith 1883-1957!  This is the final resting place for my maternal grandfather, John Addison Smith, my Mom’s dad.  From my recollection as a very little boy, Grandpa Smith was a very ornery, tough old man.  He was a victim of childhood spinal meningitis which left him with a bum leg.  I remember the leg brace that he fashioned for himself to help in his walking.  I was 6 years old when he passed away and I still remember the trip to, and  his funeral proceedings in 1957.

After spending some time there reflecting on some old faded memories, I said my goodbyes and walked back to my car.

I  proceeded to the second residence.  It was only about 75 yards on past my grandfather’s headstone.  Donald Ray Hammack January 19,1935-December 15, 1935.

This is the headstone on my oldest brother’s grave.  This is the brother that I never got the chance to know or see personally, he died 16 years before I was born!  But you see, I do know what he looked like.   My parents ALWAYS kept the one and only picture that I am aware of,  Donald sitting in a chair, hanging in their bedroom!   Donald was my parent’s first born son, their pride and joy, the beginning of  their legacy, that legacy was to be  a total of five boys and one girl!

But before Christmas came in that first joyous year in 1935, Donald became sick and passed away from apparently the results of pneumonia..  Donald Ray Hammack lived to be four days shy of 11 months old, and passed away just 10 days before Christmas!  So I am reasonably sure the  Christmas season of 1935, in the Hammack household, was extremely heart-breaking!

And so as I got back in to my car and proceeded to drive home, a ghostly emotional feeling hung over my head.  It was very hard to explain!  Something that I can’t describe!

For the 1:15 minute drive back to Yuma, I was putting the pieces of my heritage into perspective.  My parents got married in 1934 in Buckeye, AZ.  Three of my brothers were born in the Brawley-El Centro, CA area.  My grandfather and oldest brother are buried in Brawley, CA.  My oldest son was born in Phoenix, AZ.  Now I am living in Yuma, AZ.

Very interesting!

Coincidence???